I stopped writing for a while. I was going to title this "Never, never , never quit", "Stick and Stay", "Keep Going", or something of the sort, but I try to use words and phrases that aren't over used or cliche'. Truth be told I quit writing because I got bored, didn't think I deserved to even be writing (my opinion and thoughts don't matter), and it was headed in a direction I didn't like (I needed time to work things out).
An acquaintance of mine, that had been reading my blog pointed out that there was this weird negativity in the air about it, and I had been feeling that way for a bit, and I didn't want it, so I decided that my writing wasn't the place for it. So, I took a break. I didn't know if or when I would start again, and as I am now sitting here, I still don't know how often I'll post, or even if I have the ability to focus enough to make it a habit.
So today I have been reading articles since I got up. Stuck in a rut of effort that is getting no where, I have learned in the past that in order for something to change, you have to change something (sometimes pretty drastically, but not always) in your life first.
Letting my intuitions guide my reading with my antennas up, I read an article about Ryan Freel, an ex-baseball player, who was as erratic as he was troubled. I see signs in that story of many lives, my own included, all-be-it from different angles. The second was on Meditation and how it can make you look (and possibly feel) younger.
Stay with me, I'm getting there. We all have desires, hopes, and dreams. They are unique to you, and therefore the journey towards them will be as unique as you are. If you aren't unique and you follow a crowd normally, then you're journey will be down a very worn path, with many people, but don't be shocked when you go down that path, and it isn't exactly what you envisioned. People say all the time that "you are what you eat", or "you act the way you think", so the message is clear; "Change what you eat and think". Easy, right? No, not always! Why? Because that road is broad and worn, easy to see.
So here is my solution, in order to put your own hopes, dreams, and wants on the line, change what you do. Everything else is fluff. When you do it in this manner two things happen, you get to take responsibility for your own actions, the benefits ( or consequences) for those actions, and their outcomes are your's and your's alone. All the other "behaviors" are things someone else can take "credit" for and that's why they are harder to change. You're ability to claim ownership of those is cheapened by the ability of other to influence the way you think. You're actions are your's and your's alone. This is why someone will blame you for acting a certain way, and claim they have you're best interest at heart because they are trying to help you change the way you think, which in turn will change the way you behave. This is sinking sand.
We say all the time that actions speak louder than words. So do what you do and don't let someone who is trying to influence you mentally, tell you how you should act. The fact is, you know how you are acting and if you want something, mold you're actions in a way that will allow you to pursue your hopes, dreams, and desires. If you do this in a way you're life will allow it, then you will start to see the fruit of your efforts.
